So, I got a little sick recently, and let me tell you, the diagnosis was a bit scary. I mean, how can you look at me—a fine girl—and tell me I have asthma and high blood pressure? 😳
Well, I decided to take a trip to Lagos to clear my head. First stop: a check-up at my home hospital. The doctor asked me, “What were you thinking?” and “What are you thinking now?” Honestly, I felt fine! Maybe I was just overly worried about nothing.
What could a fine girl like me possibly be worried about?
The Pressure of Expectations
You see, sometimes we get so used to life going a certain way that when things take a twist, we start to panic. How could I forget the goodness of the Lord in my life so far?
I finished school about six months ago, and trust me, I had so many plans—let’s call them castles built on air. For a plan to exist, there has to be a goal, right? Well, I had a goal, but mostly, I just wanted to make money. Money for what, though? 🤷♀️
I want plenty Ice creamm and i love traveling from one place to anotherrrr
After moving to Abuja, where I barely knew anyone, I had some private plans (which I won’t share). But guess what? They flopped! So, I started rethinking my options—should I move to Lagos or Ibadan?
Thing is i cant precisely say i was bored cause most of whom i knew were in Lagos, I’m still trying to figure out if I’m an introvert or an extrovert. I enjoy being inside the house, but I also love hanging around those who are always out and about.
However, where I live in Abuja feels a bit isolated from the rest of the world, and I’m not very mobile these days. The Uber fares can be quite draining, though not as steep as they are in Lagos!
Why Was I So Worried?
I was worried and because my plans were going in the opposite direction. If they had gone exactly opposite, at least I would know what to do. I never imagined my reality would turn out the way it did. I had all these plans and thought I’d have my feet firmly on the ground.
But looking back now, I see this as God’s way of giving me a reality check. Who’s the captain of this ship again? Oh right, it’s God!
Moving Forward
I’m fine now! I got a health tracker to monitor my heartbeat. No, I didn’t use the blood pressure meds, and I didn’t collect the inhaler. I’m okay! Why? Because I realized I was worried about things I shouldn’t have been. I was on this train of urgency, but trust me, after these past few weeks, I can confidently say: it’s not as urgent as you think it is. God took care of it.
And speaking of taking care of things, here’s my song recommendation: “Ma Mikan” by Sola Alyson. Thank me later!
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